I was informed that 2 atheist teens were brought to hear me speak recently. The church that brought me in to speak has been trying to convert them for months. The pastors were really excited to talk to them about my message and try to show them “the truth” through it. They thanked me for being such a great speaker.
It is killing me inside! This has been the hardest thing to deal with so far in my journey associated with my job in ministry. I had to hide my disappointment. I had to pretend it did not bother me to be a part of the proselytizing process. I could not help but think “I hope they did not take everything I said to heart.” I desperately wanted to walk away from my job right there.
It means more to me now than ever that I build a way out of ministry in the church market. I have been working hard towards leaving the religious market and have the groundwork in place to really push the change in my life without my family being totally devastated.
I spoke at great lengths, after the service, with the pastoral staff. I gained much more insight into the situation. I will do another post soon about the atheists that came to the show and what I learned.